Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Jerry Porter
Jerry Porter

Award-winning photographer and visual storyteller with over a decade of experience capturing landscapes and urban scenes across Europe.

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